#I am so far up Rooster's ass now that it is Lily's responsibility to remind me that Maverick EXISTS

[bradleysbradshaws]

I have been surviving on pure, distilled Copium for the past year and probably will forever. But here is how I have managed to rationalize not being on the Roosmav server, or at least not missing the sniveling coward I had once been while I had the privilege of being on there:

Bottom!Mav conversation: If I wanted to see bottom!Mav conversation that didn't result in fic, I could just go over to twitter. In the meantime, I should just be grateful that people still write bottom!Mav fic for me to enjoy, and I am very appreciative of that. My God, Fuddle's MommyMav longfic got me through some of my worst mental states with the amount of Mavussy-eating she included in it. I go over to that fic to decompress sometimes, lol.

Bottom!Bradley conversation: I never had any bottom!Bradley conversation while I was on the Roosmav server (I would cry and go scuttle away in terror any time a Tom Cruise penis would be mentioned going near a Miles Teller butthole/pussy - I was so lame, damn), so I simply don't know what it's like to have or miss it. I am very curious as to how I would approach talking about bottom!Bradley with other people now - I am happy to do it, as that has been my only topic of conversation with a couple of close friends this year - but I still don't know what it would be like if I were able to discuss it beyond a very condensed group of people. I hope I will have the chance to, one day!

TC channel: I've talked about it, but I squandered most of my time last year as a Tom Cruise sycophant, rather than being a Roosmav fan on the Roosmav server. I spent probably 90% of my time on the TC channel because it was the place I was least-likely to run into bottom!Bradley conversation - SO STUPID. But it's the same as Bottom!Mav conversation - if I wanted to see people talk about Tom Cruise's tits and ass that didn't result in fic, I could just go over to twitter. But tbh, it's boring, and I really do find Miles Teller more interesting to look at now. Tom is great to look at in a movie-star way, but Miles is great to look at in a real-life, this-is-the-type-of-guy-I-would-actually-go-for way. I love them both, but my heart and my dick belong to Rooster now.

So what I genuinely miss most are the personalities of the people on there + being able to share my art with said people (of course, I'm going to forever miss Fopps freaking out over my little dick drawings - that was my favorite thing to do, lol). I still am going to share my art, and it will all be graciously ignored, I know, but if I didn't still want to contribute things, I wouldn't be here.

I was also banned from the Writers' Lounge because - as always - I couldn't handle any bottom!Bradley conversation - and now the only thing I have been doing for the past seven months is talking about writing bottom!Bradley. Man - the way that I have had to forcibly 180 my brain to adapt - but I do think that this was all completely necessary because there was no way in hell that I could have kept going on in Roosmav as the person I once had been (this may be unfortunate now because I know they would rather me go away, but I still love Roosmav too much to give up on wanting to contribute to them).